Difference between Me and A Terrorist

At the big new exhibition centre down my end of town, which my council tax helps to fund,the yearly UK Arms Exhibition is held. That's ordinance. Bombs. Tools to kill lotsa people quick.

I noticed it a couple of years ago, when girls were tying themselves to the railways to stop the metro running the exhibitors and customers there (who ranks as the terrorist in this situation, do you think? The guys buying the guns or the girls trying to stop them buying the guns? The Met Police were deployed against the girls trying to stop the buyers of guns. They might've have made their current job a little easier by siding with them instead.) That year a journalist managed to get in there. He stood over a display case where a lovingly spotlit glossy copper object lay in a case, and the salesman said enthusiastically, "This is a thing of beauty. It features a caseload of little bomblets, which are scattered on impact AND - are delayed action to maximase impact!" The journalist goes, "Impact. You mean dead people." The salesman drew away, affronted.

The arms industry is now the main UK manufacturing industry, products all exported. The government loves it, as 75-85% of the cost of guns is tax. Our main use for taxes is to fund our health service. So we pay our doctors by exporting murder. So the difference between me and a terrorist is that he knows the names of the people he killed. Also they probably died with full stomachs.

Babies and Bedpans

My mother is here from Kenya for the month of August, and I've taken my summer leave to coincide with her visit. She, my sis and I are planning a train trip to meet up in the peak district next week to see my grandma. And my mum just asked if I would arrive as late as possible so she and the other two could go out and enjoy themselves during the day without me and the baby. She's worried about room in my gran's car, and car seat issues.

I feel like a pariah! I picture us sitting around the breakfast table as we plan for the day, my child on my knee, as my fellow holiday makers cross off joys unreachable by them due to my lumpen childladen presence. Ouch!

Why oh why are other people's children so unpleasant to have around? I have a scenario I keep before me whenever I am discussing, say, desirable early childhood and family supportive policies and political stances.

One day I hope to be 95, and someone may need to bring me a bedpan.

And when I need her, this bedpan bringing person, I hope she will be doing her job because she chose it. I hope she will be well paid for it, not because I'll be filthy rich but because it's standard. I hope she will have grown up in an atmosphere of kindness and dignity, in a world that valued human dignity. I hope she will be gentle and unharried, have time to smile, not too many people to take care of, not too long shifts so she won't be tired. I hope she will have seen her mother treated with respect from when she was tiny; I hope she will have seen around her that the young, the weak, the old, the infirm, were treated with care, and with the consciousness that they are people.

I hope I will have helped build a world where she is not worrying, as she walks in, how she's going to feed her children, about her childcare arrangements, about her roof or her energy needs. I hope the political systems I have ushered in over my lifetime have safeguarded her clean water and her pension, and not ripped her off. I hope this reflection keeps me conscious of the impact of my decisions! And I hope it keeps me kind! Because anyone whose kids I'm nasty to may be the great grandparent of that person, I may be helping create the atmosphere she grows up in.

So should I stay home next week, cowering in my house inoffensively with my inconvenient child? Ai. What a world!